im feeling.. demoralised.
i got 14 for my prelims l1r5.
before i got back my results, i told myself tht 15 would be good enough for me. I thought i'll be rejoicing when i found tht i reached my target. but ironically, i dint. i realised it wasnt good enough when i found out wad others were getting. what's 15 for l1r5 to me?
my parents are saying tht 14 is not very good.
i know myself that it isnt great too.
i know that my parents are trying to put words in a very nice way already.
i know that they are trying to encourage me to study harder.
i know they dont mean to put me down.
i know my parents know that i really tried very hard already.
i know what they said might be right.
but i really feel sad when my mum's telling me that 14 cant get me to a good school.
when she tells me that i might even do worse for my olevels.
she's behind me talking to me now
but she doesnt noe that actually while im facing the computer screen and typing this now
my tears are flowing when she doesnt know.
this post is not meant to blame my parents for anithing.
i understand.
maybe im just disappointed.
with myself, not anyone else.
God is My Promise
